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1 Year and 2 months and still going!

I can't believe I've been writing in these blogs for all this time. Time really does go by fast...

The Remains

I finally did it. I gave myself to God. And in the process my CDs suffered the consequences. They got trashed, at least the non-christian ones, which leaves me with like 6...bah humbug. Well, anyway, I was remembering about this girl, or better yet this young lady which showed me a new way of life. A lady the satisfied my every need( no sex by the way, which actually surprised me) she was great. By this time last year we were becoming a couple. By this time last year she had me desperate to know if she would accept me as her boyfriend. Now time has passed, and trees have lost their leaves and grown new ones people have died, and babies have been born, and now those feelings for her have changed. She loves another, and I like someone else, but no matter how much I tried to drive foward, I always look through the rear view mirror. I always ask myself, what if? but somehow I know that it was never going to be something that was going to last. Distance has it's efects on the mind, just like the solitude some of us face. In the Bible John the Baptist was in jail, and in his solitude I guess you could say he doubted himself for a moment, when he asked if Jesus was the one he had been waiting for, or did they have to wait for someone else. It tragic to think that when you are alone, you become your own worst enemy. I loved that lady, I can't deny I still feel something for her, but it's over. Life has taken me on a separate road. My life has changed dragistically. I'm actually devoting myself to God. Just last night I sang with other youths from my church in a "Vigilia" in another church. A Vigilia is a gathering that has no time limit usually ends at ? ( I wouldn't know last night I got home around 12:30). Last weekend I went to a church camp. I think it was last weekend or the one before. And it was great. I don't know what to say about it but it was great. I can say this, I will be going to the next one in June. Hey I ran out of space. Wow!?!

Songs for the Week

Burn- Alkaline Trio
Last Sunrise- Aiden
Plug In Baby- Muse
Romance- My Chemical Romance
Satch Boogie- Joe Satriani
Crazy Train- Ozzy Osbourne
Highway To Hell- AC/DC