Endless Once More...

Though I didn't mention anything about us
I think I didn't have to.
It was all okay,
I guess.
It was all I could ask for.
Or would it be wrong to ask for more?
I would,
but...

Father? Husband?

Reminiscing while I hug your tears away,
Tears invade my eyes.
The thought suddenly crashes into mind.
A father? me?
How could it be?
A husband? me?
No, this can't be?
But yes, it is,
My life has come to this,
Where I can only imagine and wonder,
What kind of father will I be,
I'm ready,
Not really,
But no turning back now is there?
No too late.
A husband,
Astonishing who would have thought about that?
Not me.
Not at this age,
Not without trying most things I wanted,
I've done almost eveything.
I guess ths is what was missing.
Will I be the father my child needs?
Will I be the husband she needs?
Will I?

Discrepancies..

If I could go to you I would
If I could speak with you whenever I'd speak now.
If I could share with you my joy, my anger, my sorrow and pain, I'd share.
But would it be a burden for you?
Could you understand these words I say?
Would you withstand these tears of joy and pain?
Should you see me would you run away, or run towards me in happiness?

Float ( Finished )

She spread her wings and flew away,
I gazed so I thought
As she disappeared into the summer lights display.
I awoke in a ruined sanctuary.
Fallen pillars all around,
Mossy stones tell of rituals once made.
I find that I am far from home.
There was a light that beamed from the heavens.
I tried to walk towards it.
But I felt weakened and unable to follow it.
I found my legs were bleeding.
I could not feel them anymore.
This hemorrhage is hours long.
The coagulated blood showed the ground.
The crimson stain leading towards my own body.
I could taste my blood,
I could smell it, like iron.
I saw it,
the bone
the blood
my bone seeping through my skin,
my blood caressing it.
I shuddered for a moment.
I lay there staring at the heavenly light
that shown for above to afar.
My eyes swell up with tears.
That beautiful, heavenly light starts to blur.
I start to hurt knowing I tried to hard.
I tried to fly,
but I only ended up crashing.
Now fallen I can't get up.
And now I'll never reach that lustrous Light.
If only I could float.
Float towards you...

Breath of Despair

Death caught up to us,
Like the morning breeze to the flowers.
The least we ever thought of was death.
It waited slowly,
It watched us play,
It enjoyed the view,
Of me with you.
Just to separate us forever.
Should we have never met,
Would death have ever come for you?

We stood on the docks,
watching the waves crash into the rocks.
How beautiful they seem.
How painful it felt.
The breath of fresh ocean air,
Sprays into my face.
Smiling with you felt like heaven,
Laughing was our paradise.
There was something in the air,
I couldn't really grasp it.
It was like silent words of despair.
We breathed too much.
We became to desperate too fast.

A rush of emotions came,
And soon we became animals.
A product of despair and innocence lost.
Children playing adults
Not conscience of their lust and desire.
Fall fall into sin.
Deeper and deeper.
Until so deep in
Their only breath becomes
A Breath of Despair

Fall

Falling in despair
There is no where to turn
I kneel down on the ground
While my knees callous themselves
The signs of years of kneeling to your call
Show themselves
I start to speak to He who hears me.
For no one else does
And though sometimes I feel you near me
I feel I need you more.
There is no sacrifice I could give
But my life
Nothing is worth anything compared
To the love You have given me.
I adore You for what you have done in me.
I lose myself in your glory
Like falling without ever hitting the floor
Like descending and never landing
Like hugging a person you love
Because you feel they'll never leave.
You are my Savior
With you I shall fall wherever.

Silence...

I can hear you...
but what tells you that I want to?
In my silence i reflect.
In my silence i feel indestructible.
It is when I open my mouth that I feel Vulnerable.
I feel insecure,
Unworthy,
Beaten,
Exposed.
But Only When I open my mouth.
So while you try to open it.
And make me fall apart
I'll laugh in my silence
as you fail to see my heart.
though I wear it on my sleeve.
I have said all I needed to with
just a little smirk.
so now I should just give you the hint,
I finished...

Re-

Re- do
Re-name
re-born

R- is Restart
E- is Everything
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Re-Love?

Things i could be without

there were many things i could be without
and never would they bother me.
for starters we could talk about
this whole tragedy?
i don't need to be told
that you don't feel for me.
because i stopped feeling for you.
i don't need to know
how perfect your life is
mine is just as well.
so maybe you think you're happy.
but in your eyes you can't hide
all false hope you ever made.
will soon be your demise.
now close your mouth
breathe deep,
i know this is quite a shock.
but simply lets just face it,
this thing is simply not!
i changed what i had to,
maybe it wasn't what you expected.
a full grown man
all mature,
and oh so very respected.
but i'm just a boy with the heart of lover
who is simply not interested.
make your life
cause i made mine.
good riddence,
good luck.
as i said,
i'm simply not interesed

Sentimiento

Porque la tristeza no es producto de la muerte de un querido solamente.
Analizo mi presepectiva de pensar y concluyo que la vida es un funeral de
sentimientos.
Es pues entonces nuestra vestimenta diaria negra por el respeto merecido del muerto.
O es tal para parecer mas delgado que el otro el asunto seria entonces aparentar de quesu estatus
esta mejor de lo que parece. pues no se que decir estoy agoviado. triste, callado, extraño mi ser querida