When Suicide seems like Disney

It's remarkably stupid the way I act when I feel incompetent. I sometimes feel like death would be the perfect escape and that any suffering would be worth not be present with my family. I really love my Mom, but somehow my Dad is so incredibly hard to love. I sometimes wish I could bash his head against the floor and yell in his ear, "I exist! Talk to Me!!!" Really, I feel like the least I have is a father. All he does is complain that I'm not worth my 18 years of life, all these years have been wasted, well I don't have a proble, with that. I can't say I hate him but sometimes it's the only feeling that comes to mind, but I just found a new word, "detest". I can say I detest him every so and so...

(You make the Title[seriously, You Do])

It's been a while since your faint voice crept through my ears. Still, it's hasn't come by. It's been a while since your laughter made my cheers. Now it will never be. I somehow get this feeling that you're looking for me, but what am I to do, I can't believe I'm leaving this helplessly. I don't know what to do, if I should be here or with you. I can't see where I'm going and somehow I don't worry. But as for now I'll leave this clear, if you're near if you're far, all I want is my guitar. Because through the tears and sorrows cried, I've always been able to play my guitar. And now in my life there's a new kind of song this song which I try to get along with. This is a song which tells many things, and a song for me to live. I have no more words to add to this speech. But somehow it comes out rythmically.

Lamento Solitario

Que triste ese lamento
De un nino llorando,
de una alma en quebranto,
Y mi soledad en su ulitimo suspiro.
Pero como te digo,
Que tu eres como el trigo?
Que alimentas el alma,
Y callas todo suspiro?
Dime como te digo,
Que tu eres la razon,
De mi lucha con mi corazon
Y el llanto de aquel nino en mi corazon.

Hello Again Cruel World

The Shit hit the fan, (God Forgive me) it it really has. Everything around me has become a problem. I don't know what to do! It really sucks...Until next time..